“I’m Just a Girl Who Can’t Say No”February 20, 2009 at 1:43 pm | Posted in Me, rheumatoid arthritis (RA) | 5 Comments
Tags: chronic disease, RA and employment, RA and stress, Rheumatoid arthritis, self-employment, stress
Fortunately or unfortunately, I’m not quite sure which, this is not in the context of the song from Oklahoma that the quote is from. The thing I can’t seem to say no to is work!
I need to relax. I need to de-stress. I need to work less hours. I need to ‘respect my disease’ – god, that’s an awful expression, but if you’ve got RA or know someone who has then you’ll know what I mean.
So why is that when some guy rang out of the blue yesterday and asked if I could do a 9,000 letter mail merge and print run (which is BIG and not my ‘specialist subject’ either) I found myself saying ‘Yes’? He’s coming in this afternoon and I’m going into the meeting with the ridiculous attitude of ‘actually I hope he decides not to use me’. This is DUMB!
The problem with working for yourself in the kind of work I do is that you tend to always say yes when people ask for a quote, because you might be madly busy one week (or month) and dead quiet the next. I used to work from home on my own, but now I have an office and an employee I have overheads to cover (although in fairness my employee more than covers her bit of overheads!) so it’s extra stress again.
I’m wondering whether to give up the office and go back home, but clients do like a snazzy office address rather than a ‘9 Acacia Avenue’ type obviously home address! And they like, once in a while, to be able to come into the office, which I wouldn’t do if I was at home.
Then again, I’ve got this guy coming in and I don’t really want him (so to speak) so maybe that’s a plus in the home office thing.
Oh no, decisions, decisions … more stress. Wibble.
Anyone seen my marbles – I seem to have mislaid them.